Memories, Past, Scars, Manipulation.
It’s amazing how much reliving our past can emanate such an incredible amount of emotion and feeling. Simply by reading, thinking, reflecting. Sometimes there are things, though, that really shouldn’t be relived. Sometimes there are things we see of others’ past that we shouldn’t see, that are from a different time and place that have nothing to do with us. And they will continue to have nothing to do with us.
But what happens when a person in your life now, rekindles those memories right in front of you and then you become involved? What happens when someone you are in love with is reminiscent of their first love, and is no longer reminiscent of your love? What happens when those memories playing and emanating emotion & feeling interfere with the relationship you are in? Do those memories now ha ve something to do with you? Or are you still to stay out? Sure, few will say. For the majority that says, no they have nothing to do with you, what about when those memories start to make you doubt what you have in the present?
I got a fortune cookie today that said “You must turn your scars into stars.” How to do that? Take the hurts you have had in the past and make them incentive to turn the negative into positive. Well, I wish I could tell someone that, and that they’d actually listen. I wish I could jusyt say something and it would sink in and really affect him. But I doubt it would. I just want to say, hey, take a look at your past. It’s there for a reason. Look at your present. It’s here for a reason. You can’t see your future, and it’s there for a reason. So just let go of the past and give the present a chance. Give it a chance without looking back. Stop looking back, stop comparing. Stop missing what you had, because the past is only relivable in memory. Hands down.
So I spoke of memories, the past, and scars. Not onto manipulation.
Here comes the rant!
Women are so good at it. I’ve been called manipulative by one person in my life. One. And he has no idea who I am or what I’m about. He sees me in a skewed light, and there’s nothing I can do about that. But really, I don’t understand manipulation. I understand getting what you want, and trying to get what you want, but I do not understand putting others’ feelings and well-being in harms way to get what you want. I don’t. People may say otherwise about me, that I will do anything to get what I want. I am only like that when I want something, but will never knowingly put someone else’s emotional state of well being at stake. I may hurt others unknowingly in the process of getting what I want, but I would never manipulatively conjure up a ruthless plan in my head to hurt others. Sure I can be wreckless and hurt others without thinking that it will, but if I knew it would hurt them - I wouldn’t do it. It seems to me that there are tons of manipulative people out there that just do it because they feel good being in control of others. “Your boyfriend sent me this, I think you should help him.” That’s great, you knew that I’d be hurt that he didn’t go to me, but also you knew that I’d be upset that he went to YOU. So, not only ar eyou acting like everything is okay becaus eyou are trying to help him, but you are underhandedly making me inferior to you because he’d rather talk to you than me. Manipulaiton in it’s finest, folks. Manipulation in it’s finest. Having a mask of “goodness” and “I only want what’s best,” when under the mask is a conniving bitch who just wants to hurt others out of being threatened. That’s a beautiful thing.
